There is a beautiful poem by Sukhvinder Sircar that spoke to me while I was going through what was easily the darkest spell of my adult life. I hesitated to share it with you because that whole period was oh so personal, and I needed to traverse that landscape alone. All that is changing now and I feel myself wanting to share with you words that sustained me. I see that “look” in some of you, the look of private pain and disappointment. In my own way I want to tell you that while I respect the path you are on, I want to help. Maybe you too will find solace in this gentle poem. Cheers!
Progress is slow on this house of ours, it’s hard to believe it’s been four years since we purchased the property. Much has happened since then, just not much to show. The house was built and deconstructed in Bali, packed into shipping containers and two of the four are actually ON the property, one more is due to arrive within weeks. Recently I took a little drive out there to meet with the surveyors. Here in Hawaii, when you build, sometimes you have to get a “special” permit because land is often deemed “culturally significant.” Our land falls within that zone. Years ago, an archaeological study was done and our property was found to be part of a much larger settlement which may have included a fishpond or place that fish were harvested. Rocks seemingly stacked willy-nilly were found to be a continuation of rocks on adjoining property and other property across the street. Despite the vague clues and haphazard appearance, there is nothing willy-nilly about these formations. It’s our plan to honor the significance of these structures and preserve this precious land by creating an area which is “off-limits,” at least during the building phase of this project. Our deed will be amended to show our intent to not build on this portion, hence, the need for surveyors; they were needed to measure the “meets and bounds” of the preservation area.
Some people have listened to my stories about our property with interest, others wonder how we could be so endlessly patient with this process. What can I say? We’ve chosen to build with non-traditional materials in Hana of all places, just a stones throw from the ocean. Nothing about this plan was guaranteed to be easy, and truthfully, it’s been a long and difficult road. To become impatient tho defeats the whole purpose of this project. We may not have a house to unwind in yet we are being taught the very lesson of “taking it easy” through developing this land. What is the point of getting uptight about a house that’s supposed to instill peace? I look at it this way, good things are worth working for, tenacity and perseverance will pay off and someday it will happen. I’ll be sure to keep you posted!
a simple view of what my house looks like lately… this little one is one of two pieces which will be sent off to New York soon!
I’m working on a new project for a show in New York that will start in June. It’s called “The Gloaming” and it refers to that magical span of time between day and night where the last golden rays of the sun transform the landscape into warm and vibrating hues. I love this time of day; it’s my favorite. I often say “It’s my favorite time of day!” Maybe it’s because I was born during this magical moment; maybe at that time, my body senses it’s become exactly one day older. I believe you could almost feel the earth turn on it’s axis during these moments, making our movement on this spinning orb noticeable. It’s as if nature is grasping us by the shoulders, shaking us forcefully and compelling us to stop and look around… “Open your eyes! Take this in! You are alive in a place rich with beauty and awe!” The way the golden sun sets fire to the sky and slowly fades and rich hues of violet and periwinkle begin to emerge fills me with gratitude and appreciation. There is no room in these moments for sadness or anger, instead a certain type of peace is cast here as a gift for being able to enjoy the moment.
With my thoughts on that certain type of peace, I’m steadfastly working on my submissions. I’m working differently this time, trading in my piecing with raw-edge appliqué. A move which I had hoped would be liberating for me, offering me to work with more freedom and spontaneity. I wish I could report that’s been the case. Thus far I’ve encountered “issues” which I hope will become overcome as time goes on. Today my task is to secure all these pieces down and (hopefully) finish the quilting. It’s possible. I think. I have no choice really but to finish it today. Wish me luck!
I’m feeling very humbled these days in front of my design wall. I think it takes lots of courage to be an artist. Sometimes more courage than I can muster… well, most of the time. I press on tho; I have an almost primal need to bring something new to this world, to make new discoveries along the way and to contribute something good. On my wall is a pastel by an artist (I cannot remember the name) who seems to have captured that moment when the sun sinks low and bathes everything in gold. Two opposite colors of purple and yellow blend towards one another in magnificent arrays cascading their influence on the landscape. If only it were that easy in fiber. Here, I’m left with color and shape, hard edges and blunt transitions. Threadwork will help soften those edges… a little. I have in mind to add in illusions of transparencies and veils. No sure if I can do it, I’m reaching for what courage I have to make my vision a reality.
My work was accepted into Art Maui 2015! It’s always an honor and I’m thrilled that I finally get to show this to you! I made this piece while exploring the shape of a circle. I started it a very long time ago as I entered into a new period of my life. I was exploring the fragmentation of the whole, the play of darkness and light and the ripple-effect that is ever present. Within each person, situation and space there is a blend of somber and joyous which impacts that that surrounds. Despite our imperfections we are all trying to make the pieces fit the best we know how. This quilt is a departure of my usual color palate of mostly brights yet it still speaks to my “all color all the time” trait that seems to be present in much of my work. I see this piece and think that I have not demanded enough of myself. I lack the focus and stamina that I know I am capable of. Still I am proud that I have returned to creating, that it currently hangs in the Schaefer Gallery at the MACC and I hope you get a chance to see it!
I’m pleased to say my latest quilt was accepted into Art Maui, a local mixed media art show! now I can finally show you the piece in it’s entirety… but not today. Sorry, I’m not trying to tease you, I simply had no time to document it in photo. Truth be told, I stitched my signature while being driven to the venue! Car-sickness makes me not want to do that again. The show opens tomorrow and hopefully I’ll be able to snap a picture of it to show you. If you’re in the area, come join me at the MACC at 2pm! I would be thrilled to see you!
it’s been a year since i planted roses… one of my better accomplishments. i’m so grateful that every day i have fresh flowers for my house.
it’s one of the things that makes this place a home.
stayed up late last night on this one. much more work to be done today. heaven help me.
This may come as a surprise to some, I really hate making quilts. Well, I do and I don’t. Maybe you’re like this too. You see, I’ve reached a point in making quilts, I’ve made so many of them, that there’s somewhat of an expectation that I turn out good work. Technically, no problem, but what I’m referring to is the composition… balance, color, contrast, shape, proportion, scale… and so forth. The “Visual Dance” as Joen Wolfrom would refer to it. Joseph Albers once said “If you have nothing to say, don’t shout.” That’s honestly how I feel about my work sometimes. I look at my design wall and cringe to see that I’m shouting. This insecurity has the best of me sometimes. It sucks the fun out of me and in the days leading to work on a big project, I’m cranky and depressed. I really hate being a quilt maker at this point. Eventually, I look at the clock and I realize I’m wasting time being in a funk so I move myself into the studio and simply start working. Head down, ignoring that creep sitting on my shoulder, whispering “another big quilt, what for?”… “what do you expect to do here?”… “people won’t like it.”… on and on it goes. Its in moments like these I understand why Van Gogh cut off his ear. So I play music REALLY loud, like Radio Paradise, or Coldplay on Pandora, or lately I’ve been listening to Serial, a podcast that tells a non-fiction story over the course of several weeks. I’ve become obsessed with it! Did Adnan do it? What’s up with Jay? Why didn’t Asia get to testify? Anybody with me? There are charts for people like me, “people obsessed with Serial,” its a thing. You can google it. Hmmmm. What was I saying?
I hate making quilts. Yeah, I really do. Well, I do and I don’t.
i have been stepping back more lately, trying to see how things unfold naturally.
so far i cannot complain.
I’ve been accepted into a local show at the Hui No’eau! The opening was last Friday, and the show lasts through May 22nd.
It’s a good little show and I’m happy to be keeping company with so many wonderful artists! Hope you are able to check it out!
Karuna Santoro Red Dice – Optical Illusion Cube
A display currently up at the Hui, this one celebrating the artist Frida Kahlo!
Elements #41 and #42
I’ve been busy! I’m super thrilled to say that these little pieces have been accepted into a local show at the Hui No’eau! They are each 10″ x 10″ and are for sale at $125 a piece. If you would like one, please contact the Hui at (808) 572-6560! The opening reception is Friday, March 13th, and the show runs from March 14th to May 22nd. If you’re in town please stop by!
I’ve been contemplating my world so much lately, I feel like it’s simply time to get to work.